At what moment does a look become more that seductive? At what point it bothers us? I know the answer to those two questions, because it has happened to me.
There is a look that feels uncomfortable, morbid. There is a different kind of intensity in the eyes of that person that is more than the innocent desire felt by most. Is the type of look that you feel in your body, as if the hand of an unwanted lover touching you, groping you; making you so sick in the stomach that you feel like throwing up until there is nothing left.
I know that look…I spend days avoiding that person in the hopes that the look, along with the memory of it and the sensation as well, will go away. It's disgusting. But is not only the look, is the eyes themselves. Is almost as if there was nothing good in them, nothing honest or sensible about those eyes. That look is worse than that of a stalker, a sexual predator.
There are a few words that come to mind when remembering that look: depravity, assault, wretchedness, unnatural…
How does a person become like that? How are they able to inflict such sensations? Such fear?
It is beyond me, but all I know is I want those eyes, that look to go away.
Please make it go away.