Sunday, August 28, 2011
Sunday, August 21, 2011
Monday, August 15, 2011
Saturday, August 13, 2011
What am I to do? How am I to fight off my biggest and strongest contender? How am I to stop myself from destrying what may be great?
I asked for their advised. You know what their answer was? Don't make any rushed choices, think before you act, and just hold one a little more, it will be fine. But I am so scared. I am scared of getting hurt, I am scared of loosing it, I am scared of not being enoguh for it. But to be honest with you, I am more scared of keeping it. Of being seen for what I truly am, and then for being rejected for it, or worse, for being loved and accepted because of it.
I dweel in the shadows of uncertanty. How am I to survive this? How am I to survive me?
Him: Now look at that. Fancy seeing you here.
Her: (turning, surprised after recognizing the voice) I could say the same thing.
Him: (hugging her) it's been a while.
Her: Indeed it has. How have you been?
Him: Good, doing my thing.
Her: still doing music?
Him: you know that is what I love the most.
Her: that and women.
Him: Can you blame me? they are my muse. especially if they look like you do in that dress.
Her: I bet they are. And many other things as well.
Him: well well, you have developed a sharp tongue.
Her: (half smile) amongst other things.
Him: (laughs) what brings you here?
Her: boredom, the promise of alcohol and my cousin.
Him: I can help you with the first two. If your husband is not around that is.
Her: nice way of asking if I am married. And the answer is no.
Him: neither am I, never been. But that does not mean you are not with someone.
Her: not at the moment.
Him: so you are single.
Her: I never said that.
Him: I wonder what else you have developed, or what your holding back on.
Her: that is for me to know and for you to find out... if I let you.
Him: and why wouldn't you? We already know each other since some years back.
Her: and precisely becuase I know you since all those years back is why I say what I say. You are after all a male whore.
Him: such harsh words. Why not say better that I am a female lover.
Her: That is one way of putting it.
Him: I can put it many other ways.
Her: oh, you're good.!!!
Him: for someone to acknowledge that from that comment, they have to be as good as me.
Her: I don't know what you're implying.
Him: I think you do.
Her: (smiles and looks at him)
Him: when did you become so bad?
Her: when I realized I looked this good in dresses like this, that I was this smart and had more fun being this way. What about you?.
Him: When I realized women like you liked men like me.
Her: not all of use sweetie. So don't be so fast to blow your own horn.
Him: So can I blow something else then?
Her: (raises and eyebrow)
Him: besdes you have liked me for years.
Her: and yet I still haven't succumbed to your charms.
Him: you will.
Her: and what makes you so sure?
Him: the fact that you're still talking to me.
Her: you misunderstand darling. I am merely being polite to you because we have known each other for years. Besides I told you boredom brought me here.
Him: wao! you almost fooled me there. You have really worked hard to master the art.
Her: The art of what?
Him: of being a Bitch.
Her: well, you started me on this path.
Him: how am I to blame?
Her: you were my teacher, remember? and besides you were the one to give me the nickname by which you call me these days. I am just living up to your expectationss.
Him: I find it enticing.
Her: interesting. Only you would say that.
Him: Give me your number.
Her: what for? you are not going to call and if you do I am not going to pick up.
Him: Let me be the one to decide if I will call or not, and then you can decide to pick it up or not.
Her: Sure. Here it is. You love these games, don't you?
Him: They are what make all this fun.
Her: see you when, and if I do.
Him: Give me a hugh before you leave. But a real one.
Her: (getting closer to him, very close, so close that she could feel him, all of him) is this real enough for you?
Him: not at all (whispering in her ear) what would make it real, would be having you naked in my bed.
Her: (whispering back in his ear, almost a hiss) you can alwways dream darling. (kissing him on the neck, and just turning away, leaving him there, standing)
Him: (to himself) some dreams come true babe, and I will make sure this one does. Until then.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
I know the answer to that one, when I felt they stopped listening and started asking myself, what is the point? I became quiet when I felt they wanted me to listen and not talk, when I felt I said too much of me, when I heard nothing but my own voice, when I was the one interested in knowing, but no one showed interest in me.
I stopped being me when I felt invisible to the world. When I felt used, and I allowed it.
And then, I became careful when pain became my best friend and tears my eternal companions. I have learned to guard myself very well.
Only problem is, I can't find my way back to trust.
can you help me? Please?
Sunday, August 7, 2011
Friday, August 5, 2011
The dentist: who is the off limits girl.
Her: (with a sigh and a dry tone) I am.
The doctor: according to whom?
Best friend: according to the geek.
The rocker: but aren't you with sexy back.
Her: I am.
The prude: so what does the geek have to do with all this?
Her: she was at his house and for some reason I can't understand they were talking about me.
Best friend: hey, he started it.
The dentist: why?
Best friend: we were talking about the time she met the geeks cousin.
The doctor: the one with the low voice and the huge... Heart?
Her: jajajajaj, yes, him.
The prude: wait, how did you know he had a huge... Heart?
Best friend: there are tales.
Her: the guy is a legend.
The doctor: I am single!
Her: he is married!
The dentist: so you never confirmed the theory?
Her: I was dating the geek!!!
The dentist: not even after you guys broke up? I mean, it has been how many years?
Best friend: 5, but who's counting?
Her: I was off limits, and apparently still am.
The prude: but how did you come to that conclusion.
Best friend: while I was at the geeks house, his cousin called and they started talking about her...
Her: (sarcastically) how nice!
Best friend: anyways, a comment was made.
The dentist: what comment?
Best friend: if the geek would be mad if he (the cousin) slept with her, at which the geek just went red in the face and said all sorts of curse words to his beloved cousin.
The rocker: for real?!
The doctor: and then they say they are not dogs.
The dentist: it has been 5 years, why would he care. Unless...
Best friend: my thoughts exactly!
Her: wao! And then they say I think like a guy?! And leave it at that!
Best friend: oh shut up, sexy back has turned you into a girl!
The dentist: that is not a bad thing.
The rocker: I agree with the dentist.
The prude: I agree also and am happy for her, not to mention that she is having sex left and right and looks happier. Are you swallowing by the way?
Her: listen to the prude!!!! Again, you are such a hypocrite, and no, I have not had the chance to swallow.
The dentist: poor baby, can't get him to come?
Her: not really, he comes at will, and I mean that. Sting and tantric sex? Nothing to envy.
The doctor: no wonder she goes on all nighters.
The rocker: wao, for real.
Her: oh yeah, Sting's wife, eat your heart out!
The prude: wao, if only.
The dentist: what are you talking about, you have broken 3 beds already.
Best friend: at least you can visit her and sit on her couch without thinking twice about it.
The doctor: says the one who's walls are tainted.
The rocker: says the one who's car you had to take to the car wash before driving.
Her: and that is said by the one who's house you have to call before showing up. Guess we all have our faults.
The dentist: faults? We are just fucking maniacs who love it too much to let one day go by without even a quickie or a blow job!
All: amen to that sister!
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