Love Quotes


It was only a moment, but in that moment I loved you more than I will ever love anyone in a lifetime.

Monday, June 16, 2008

Sexual Drive




How much can you control your desire, your lust for another? How long would you be able to stand it if that person were in front of you? Would you master yourself or would you give in?

All these questions I ask myself when setting eyes upon that person that makes my nerves jitter। This person whom awakens the silent, dormant sexual beast that lives inside of me and provokes it to soar in all its glory.

How am I to deny it its well deseved freedom? Who am I to say no and prevent it from experiencing the wonders of life? And most importantly, why on earth would I want to?

Take me here and now, make me yours, touch me, feel me, want me, love me. Take your hands and make them explore the fullness of my body. Take your lips and make them enjoy the sweet taste of my skin. Take your tongue and make it feel the moistness of my being. Take your power and make me drown in a river of mixed emotions, unexplored sensations, extatic dreams.
Make me your now and always.

Yours truly
The Black Widow

I am not alone


I feel old, beat up, tired of the monotony of life. I want change yet I am afraid of what may come along with it. I know I am not alone, but no one else speaks about this. Why is that?
I am tired of seing the same faces and hearing the same complaints. Of not being able to end the sufering of some. Of not daring to.
I feel wasted. That this place that I exist is not the place I am meant to be, yet... I don't have the strengh to move on.
I know I am not alone, but I wish someone would come to me and say it.
I thought I had it all figured out, and for a moment I did, and in that moment I was happy. but human as I am, it was not enough. Not enough adventures, not enough desire, not enough places, not enough anything. And now, feeling this void I am afraid, that whatever monster grows inside of me, will grow too big and independent for me to control.
I know I am not alone
I wish, I dream, I hope, and yet I can't leave this sense of dread. Who do I turn to now?
I know I am not alone.
I feel drained of everything that I used to be, all those times I enjoyed carelessly now gone. no. not now, some years back. I have stopped feeling all that for a while now. I grew up.
How empty it feels.
But the one thing that keeps me hanging on, hoping, dreaming, and wishing for better things is that I know I am not alone.
I don't want an answer, I just want to send this to the general cosmic void and hope that better days will come and that I should never be alone.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Hypocrite


How do you stop all those feelings from coming to the surface?. How do you prevent them form rising? How do you keep them at bay and ignore them? How do you stop yourself from acting upon them? Do you know?How can you tell me not to, when i know you want to? How can you tell me stop, when you want to go on? How can you ask me to forget, when you yourself want those things to remain? How can you be such a hypocrite?

Confessions of a true love addict


Hi my name is... really not important... but my friends call me the Black Widow (for reasons i shall not reveal right now) and i am addicted to love. I have been a victim of this disease for over 9 years now and been trying to get some type of treatment for it for 2 years... To be quite honest i don't think there is any. I have been to numerous "love doctors" (not to say i have been with different partners hoping to get a cure from one of them just to realize they are as sick as i am or worse, they don't suffer from it at all). I have learned a lot from each of these "doctors". Some have been very optimistic and enthusiastic about the whole thing, giving me tremendous amount of hope (just so later on they could loose it themselves and blame me for it), others have been very pessimistic about it and ended up catching the virus from me. Crazy "doctors" i call them. I had been looking, endlessly, for that one "doctor" that would finally cure me (or make me worse), until a couple of months ago I stopped and thought a bit about my entire struggle with this sickness. I discovered some things about myself and about those around me. I had been fighting something that is a part of me and that no matter how hard i try, i was going against myself. This is not a disease, this is a blessing. This being a love addict gives me hope in a world where that word does not exist anymore. This disease I believed to have had, makes me strong and gives me what i need to go on, specially in those times when I almost loose my head. This that i suffer from is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me.
I met a person who believes himself to be rid of this particular illness (after months of being with him and studying his behavior towards me and others like me, i came to the conclusion that he suffers from it as much as the next guy) and he was the one who made me realize how lucky I am to have this virus. would you like to know why I say i am lucky? I can feel. I am blessed because I can feel. I still skip a heart beat whenever I think of that great person who made the biggest difference in my life, I can still say I can fall in love, I can rejoice in the fact that i can cause a reaction in someone, I can make a difference in peoples hearts ad lives, and they can make a difference in mine, I can take a part of their love, their life with me, and they can take a part of mine, and I can grow. And i can be different in a world where everyone wants to be the same. I could be called crazy and a fool for still believing in the impossible, but guess what? I am not alone. I know deep down in your hearts you are as hope-full as I am, because love is not a disease, is the reason we exist, the reason we keep on going, the reason we never give up and the reason we risk everything we are, could become, have or could have just to be with that person ("the one", "our soul mate") even if for a brief moment, and if we are unfortunate enough to loose that person, it would not matter, because we got to be with them at least once. We loved and we were loved even if for a brief moment. And that would make it all worth it.
So even though i started this conversation by saying i suffer from a disease, let me finish it this way: Hi my name is... still not important... my friends call me the black widow and I am a love addict, I am a victim of the biggest, most wonderful blessing God could have ever given us, and I am proud to say i never want to find the cure for it. Would you like to join me in my eternal quest for more victims? If your answer is yes, I am glad you are one too. Embrace it, never deny it and be free, but most of all, be in love, everyday of your life.
Truly and always yours
The Black Widow.